* Super raw and real. Don't read this if you are not having a great day. And I am sorry.
Morning. Not feeling great at all. I am actually typing this with tears streaming down my face.
There is literally nothing new to report. I am still waiting for an appointment to see a consultant and I have an appointment to see a
GP in a weeks time to possibly help get a referral.
I am in a dark place. Not end of days dark, but just fed up entirely.
I tried to reply to a comment on
AVB and Rick something who is Rick? Or what is?
I keep thinking I need a real person in my life. I want a vaping buddy. Someone to come here and help me set up my Globe and just chill with me.
My new head f*ck is that it is the
MC that has made me so ill. I actually find it hard to vape flower at the moment. It can trigger the nausea so bad. I am on 2 anti sickness tablets. They can't find a thing swrong with me at A&E and sdec. I cant have billary colic if there are no stones so that theory is out. And I am only slightly jaundiced. They yellow hasnt reached my eyeballs so apparently it is so so ok to be yellow hust as long as your eyes are not yellow.
God, I am so so sorry for this post. I feel like I am drowning here. I can't think straight and I am fed up. I need a hug.
I am guessing no one here lives anywhere near the Isle of Wight. I went to Boots over the weekend to get my 4 bottles of oramorph they prescribed me and I pretended the man in the line in front of me was
@Dooby Doo I do feel connected to you guys here but I also feel utterly alone. It is made a bit more difficult because Les is off to Pinewood after work tomorrow and isn't back until wee hour od Sunday. He's doing g the whole 501st and representing the Dark Side for charity and because it's his absolutely favourite to dress up.
He is a teacher, secondary school. Supply because he can't get a contract at his age and having taught for so many years. Got to give those jobs to the cheap newbies. I mean why would anyone want a teacher with experience and the ability to actually engage students and get them interested in art or history. No. Must hire someone fresh out of uni and fast track them to positions of authority that make them treat more qualified staff like crud.
Omg. I really must stop. And either delete or post this. Now I am crying because I am sharing all of me here and that feels so so scary.
This is me reaching out to you. I dont know what I need or want. I want to feel better.
Is there any chance at all that
THC is doing this? Is it creating the nausea?
I am just going to post this.