There can be a fair amount of sensory overload on here, but it's not a problem unique to this place, other places are not much better for the overload level. Reddit, YT, etc. I just walk away for a day or two, come back when i feel like it. So if i'm in a middle of a conversation and just randomly disappear, I might have activated the AFK mode for a bit. Also sometimes, I have IRL stuff to deal with.
OK, here goes. Outside of work I have a non-existent social life with no so called friends around me anymore post the Covid LOCKDOWN Eon. You guys, us Medbuddies™ (LOL) is my crisis life-line and safety rope, nowadays. As well as, my neurodivergence charcteristics will often, I've noticed, appear to upset and irritate others, I'm also a single child with no siblings, single with no kids. It has been highlighted that I often communicate in 3rd person too, which is odd. My sleeping pattern is shot to bits (4 hrs sleep max). Awake most nights, throughout the night and working full time for a community stroke and neuro team in North London.
Don't get me wrong, I do know people. But, I prefer to do my own thing, I always have. Relationships will go wobbly. In saying that, I do crave interaction, but in manageable bite-sized chunks (...very similar to what has previously been said in this thread by various Medbuddies™). Solidarity right there, example #1. Like, Medbuddies™ United or somehting. The fundemental interaction, vast experience knowledge alongside the empathy and compassion I have discoverd right here is 100,000,000% the best god dame medical cannabis forum out there to date and is 100% vital to my own health and wellbeing, homeostasis and equalibrium and quite possibly for most if not all Medbuddies™...
...just to make all the Medbuddies™ aware, I'm an emotionally led lad, extremely reactional - if and when triggered, but also, a creative and comedic individual with unlimitless skills and attributes that has won awards left, right and centre. I'm also a highly passionate advocate for others and their struggles. I am determined to make things right for all, if I can and I will!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm so chuffed 2 bits, over the moon and back to have received the acknowledgement, friendship and love projected towards me from all Medbuddies™, its f'ing unbelievable (I'm sobbing right now, snot and everything lol). What is wrong with me lol? But, rejection I don't cope with well at all and for me acceptance is my key for happiness. A state of belonging or something.
So, I guess what I'm trying to say is Big Up Medbuddies™, Love & Peace to all of you great people. Keep up the important ground-breaking hard work and efforts and an extra massive galactic manhug & spud to all the official MedBud Wikimanagement team that make this happen in the first place and even more importantlt help all of us to navigate through this storm to a better land of freedom and choice!
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...it feels like I'm the only 1 up at these 'Crackfiend' times of the night. Can't be, for real?
@S.O.H™ Thanks for sharing , it’s an educational lesson for me, an opportunity to stop and see things from your perspective.
Holding down a job in a community stroke and neuro team while running on 4 hours sleep? That's no joke, that’s hero level to me (I’m 35 years NHS)The fact you're showing up for others while dealing with all this says a lot.
Im pleased it was you who won the vape in the end, cosmic karma just giving you a nudge and reminder that good things happen.
Medbuddies™ United, for real. What you said about this place being a lifeline—Ive experienced that and it’s a real thing. And you're part of why it feels that way.
Nothing wrong with crying, snot and all. That's just what it looks like when something actually means something.
Big love back at you. Keep being you—third-person and all.
@MCovergrow, we are working on this very issue right now, please bare with us. I sincerely apologise personally for not being able to action things fast-enough as an organisation – moreover I apologise for not being able to get back to your email in a timely fashion. We will be bolstering our moderating team very shortly, and it's the first item on our agenda to discuss.
I will restore your original account and merge posts, with your permission. As I said initially in my email reply - we just disable forum accounts, and don't delete them, because we don't want to leave gaps in discussion, and leave missing context. Just database accounts/data are deleted permanently upon request.
I'm personally relieved to see you back, and again, I sincerely apologise.
Gents and ladies, I don't say this lightly – but I am struggling to keep up so much with my daily commitments that it's hard to keep my own head out of the 'dump' at times. I'm over four years now into well under minimum wage for running what's obviously a vital and depended upon national resource. Beyond my own financial struggles, there's a lot of mental health struggles too. I typically work 10+ hour days at the desk, and even sacrifice almost all of my weekends.
I've actually been trying to find the personal strength for months now to reply properly to @joint_account's "Check-In Tuesdays" thread, because I'm not the type to open up about my own personal struggles - moreover, in a somewhat cruel/harsh industry, I can't overly expose myself to public scrutiny; as sad as that may be to say.
Either way, there's this undying valiant spirit behind MedBud which will refuse to back down. It's not something that just I embody, but the rest of the staff too. I think there's wisdom in the adage saying to "lead by example". Though also a strong point to be made in not burning one's self out.
As an organisation that feels like it stands for everything that's good, honest and proper in the UK medical cannabis industry – I couldn't be more proud of what we've achieved so far, despite all the personal sacrifice along the way. We still have a lot to learn along the way too, and this is an example of that.
My point is, we can't always keep up - but when we don't, we overthink the situation until the point we come up with a solution. We will get there in the end, as is the MedBud way.
@Muiredach No apology needed, actually I feel I owe you a huge debt of gratitude for creating this space. What a massive accomplishment. The copyright process alone would have been a huge undertaking but creates the foundations for the future & Im personally looking forward to the first MedBud Vape Lounge (in London please as we don’t have one). As I said to @GrownHealth you are not machines and need to look after yourselves & also take time outs. Keep planning for the future but sustain yourself first and foremost. Sending you all love
Love, peace and understanding balance out the pain in our broken world. But we are all here for each other, that's a wonderful thing that will happen right here if we want it to.
@MCovergrow, we are working on this very issue right now, please bare with us. I sincerely apologise personally for not being able to action things fast-enough as an organisation – moreover I apologise for not being able to get back to your email in a timely fashion. We will be bolstering our moderating team very shortly, and it's the first item on our agenda to discuss.
I will restore your original account and merge posts, with your permission. As I said initially in my email reply - we just disable forum accounts, and don't delete them, because we don't want to leave gaps in discussion, and leave missing context. Just database accounts/data are deleted permanently upon request.
I'm personally relieved to see you back, and again, I sincerely apologise.
Gents and ladies, I don't say this lightly – but I am struggling to keep up so much with my daily commitments that it's hard to keep my own head out of the 'dump' at times. I'm over four years now into well under minimum wage for running what's obviously a vital and depended upon national resource. Beyond my own financial struggles, there's a lot of mental health struggles too. I typically work 10+ hour days at the desk, and even sacrifice almost all of my weekends.
I've actually been trying to find the personal strength for months now to reply properly to @joint_account's "Check-In Tuesdays" thread, because I'm not the type to open up about my own personal struggles - moreover, in a somewhat cruel/harsh industry, I can't overly expose myself to public scrutiny; as sad as that may be to say.
Either way, there's this undying valiant spirit behind MedBud which will refuse to back down. It's not something that just I embody, but the rest of the staff too. I think there's wisdom in the adage saying to "lead by example". Though also a strong point to be made in not burning one's self out.
As an organisation that feels like it stands for everything that's good, honest and proper in the UK medical cannabis industry – I couldn't be more proud of what we've achieved so far, despite all the personal sacrifice along the way. We still have a lot to learn along the way too, and this is an example of that.
My point is, we can't always keep up - but when we don't, we overthink the situation until the point we come up with a solution. We will get there in the end, as is the MedBud way.
Gone back and forth with a reply to your comment, but I think I'm finally there.
That’s a very honest message, and it lands exactly as intended, I can feel the weight you’re carrying, but also the pride and sense of responsibility behind it, what you’ve built with MedBud isn’t just a project it’s something people rely on, and that kind of pressure, especially over years and with so much personal sacrifice takes a real toll, the fact you’ve kept it going through that says a lot about your character and commitment, at the same time it’s completely understandable that it’s catching up with you, no one can sustain 10+ hour days, lost weekends, financial strain and the emotional load indefinitely without it affecting their headspace, that doesn’t diminish what you’ve achieved if anything it highlights just how much you’ve given.
Theres also something genuinely admirable in you acknowledging that balance needs to exist, leading by example doesn’t just mean pushing through at all costs it can also mean recognising limits, setting healthier boundaries, and showing others that sustainability matters just as much as dedication, MedBud’s strength clearly comes from that shared valiant spirit you mentioned not just from you carrying everything alone, it’s okay for that weight to be shared and for you to take a step back when needed, you’ve built something meaningful, trusted and needed, that doesn’t disappear because you take care of yourself it’s actually what ensures it can continue long term
Wishing you a bit of breathing room soon, you’ve more than earned it and you know we're here ready to be called upon for what ever it is you need us for
Gone back and forth with a reply to your comment, but I think I'm finally there.
That’s a very honest message, and it lands exactly as intended, I can feel the weight you’re carrying, but also the pride and sense of responsibility behind it, what you’ve built with MedBud isn’t just a project it’s something people rely on, and that kind of pressure, especially over years and with so much personal sacrifice takes a real toll, the fact you’ve kept it going through that says a lot about your character and commitment, at the same time it’s completely understandable that it’s catching up with you, no one can sustain 10+ hour days, lost weekends, financial strain and the emotional load indefinitely without it affecting their headspace, that doesn’t diminish what you’ve achieved if anything it highlights just how much you’ve given.
Theres also something genuinely admirable in you acknowledging that balance needs to exist, leading by example doesn’t just mean pushing through at all costs it can also mean recognising limits, setting healthier boundaries, and showing others that sustainability matters just as much as dedication, MedBud’s strength clearly comes from that shared valiant spirit you mentioned not just from you carrying everything alone, it’s okay for that weight to be shared and for you to take a step back when needed, you’ve built something meaningful, trusted and needed, that doesn’t disappear because you take care of yourself it’s actually what ensures it can continue long term
Wishing you a bit of breathing room soon, you’ve more than earned it and you know we're here ready to be called upon for what ever it is you need us for
@S.O.H™ Thanks for sharing , it’s an educational lesson for me, an opportunity to stop and see things from your perspective.
Holding down a job in a community stroke and neuro team while running on 4 hours sleep? That's no joke, that’s hero level to me (I’m 35 years NHS)The fact you're showing up for others while dealing with all this says a lot.
Im pleased it was you who won the vape in the end, cosmic karma just giving you a nudge and reminder that good things happen.
Medbuddies™ United, for real. What you said about this place being a lifeline—Ive experienced that and it’s a real thing. And you're part of why it feels that way.
Nothing wrong with crying, snot and all. That's just what it looks like when something actually means something.
Big love back at you. Keep being you—third-person and all.
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@Muiredach No apology needed, actually I feel I owe you a huge debt of gratitude for creating this space. What a massive accomplishment. The copyright process alone would have been a huge undertaking but creates the foundations for the future & Im personally looking forward to the first MedBud Vape Lounge (in London please as we don’t have one). As I said to @GrownHealth you are not machines and need to look after yourselves & also take time outs. Keep planning for the future but sustain yourself first and foremost. Sending you all love
as we don’t have one). As I said to @GrownHealth you are not machines and need to look after yourselves & also take time outs. Keep planning for the future but sustain yourself first and foremost. Sending you all love 
