Intros Account reincarnation

[MC Overgrow]

Good morning All,
I'm resurfacing after a brief deletion of my account. To be honest, the forum's noise level over the last few months became unmanageable for me.

I live with a brain tumor, neuropathic pain, and PTSD. Medical cannabis knocks the edges off for me—but the edges are still there, always waiting. I was struggling to understand what was triggering me in the forum, and looking into it I realised that my PTSD craves calm, but some of the random, chaotic, and overbearing energy generated in this forum recently was making me feel uncomfortable and unwell in ways I couldn't just shake off. I've historically avoided forums for this exact reason. MedBud felt like a safe, calm exception, but recently, it feels like being inside a washing machine on fast spin. I struggle to follow what's even being discussed. Even the mute button struggles to keep up when certain posters appear on every single thread, and I'm left realising that no amount of muting can fully quiet the noise.

I've reincarnated the account under a different email and have already set some boundaries in place. I'll use the mute option to limit exposure. Hoping to engage in a way that works better for me this time around—even if that means shrinking my world down to something I can manage, being here but not really here, keeping a part of myself tucked away just to survive it.

Wishing you all a pain free and well medicated day

 

[S.O.H™]

...if I was a contributing noise factor I apologise. sorry!

 

[NuggetofGreen]

Good morning All,
I'm resurfacing after a brief deletion of my account. To be honest, the forum's noise level over the last few months became unmanageable for me.

I live with a brain tumor, neuropathic pain, and PTSD. Medical cannabis knocks the edges off for me—but the edges are still there, always waiting. I was struggling to understand what was triggering me in the forum, and looking into it I realised that my PTSD craves calm, but some of the random, chaotic, and overbearing energy generated in this forum recently was making me feel uncomfortable and unwell in ways I couldn't just shake off. I've historically avoided forums for this exact reason. MedBud felt like a safe, calm exception, but recently, it feels like being inside a washing machine on fast spin. I struggle to follow what's even being discussed. Even the mute button struggles to keep up when certain posters appear on every single thread, and I'm left realising that no amount of muting can fully quiet the noise.

I've reincarnated the account under a different email and have already set some boundaries in place. I'll use the mute option to limit exposure. Hoping to engage in a way that works better for me this time around—even if that means shrinking my world down to something I can manage, being here but not really here, keeping a part of myself tucked away just to survive it.

Wishing you all a pain free and well medicated day

Welcome back, I hope you find a balance that works for you

 

[MC Overgrow]

...if I was a contributing noise factor I apologise. sorry!

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...if I was a contributing noise factor I apologise. sorry!

@S.O.H™ thank you for your message and also thank you for helping me actually . A lack off awareness on my part also contributed. Hope we can forward as medbuds / med buddies. Peace bro

 

[Dooby Doo]

Welcome back mate I hope you enjoy your stay this time around

 

[OldBloke]

@MCovergrow Welcome back, we missed you.

I sometimes have the same feeling of sensory overload in some threads, anywhere! I empathise, I use the mute function if I get that feeling or I just don't go there for some hours. .

My dysautonomia removes some of the brains ability to screen out noise from multiple conversations and stim overload, the Party Effect is a good name, it's possible to focus in on one convo in a room full of animated convos, my brain cannot now do that effectively & reliably and screams instead when I'm crashed.

Hugs!

 

[JR52]

Welcome back mate
I hope you are ok

 

[Fiddlesticks]

random, chaotic, and overbearing energy

My archetype is the Trickster so likewise I apologise if at any point I might have set things off. I conciously have tried to reign it in.

. MedBud felt like a safe, calm exception

I think its important what you said that different internet forums do have different vibes/feelings. The one you described is one I would like to subscribe too and help maintain.
☮☮☮

 

[MC Overgrow]

@MCovergrow Welcome back, we missed you.

I sometimes have the same feeling of sensory overload in some threads, anywhere! I empathise, I use the mute function if I get that feeling or I just don't go there for some hours. .

My dysautonomia removes some of the brains ability to screen out noise from multiple conversations and stim overload, the Party Effect is a good name, it's possible to focus in on one convo in a room full of animated convos, my brain cannot now do that effectively & reliably and screams instead when I'm crashed.

Hugs!

@OldBloke Thanks so much! I really appreciate you sharing this—it’s validating to know I’m not alone with the sensory overload. The “Party Effect” is a great name for it. Sending hugs your way & always enjoy reading your eloquent posts

 

[TheGreenAvenger]

Welcome back matey, hope you are okay.

I'm guilty of talking mumbo jumbo in various different threads, I know @GrownHealth is run off his feet with all his duties on the site as a whole and can't keep tabs on everything that gets said in every thread despite his tireless efforts, maybe soon he will get some assistance in helping make sure comments are pertinent to the thread, the numbers on this forum now have increased massively even from my registration last September

I do agree and again I hold my hands up that I comment things that aren't pertinent, I do apologise and I'll be more mindful in future as not to cause any overload, end of the day this is a space for all and I wouldn't want you to feel excluded

 

[MC Overgrow]

My archetype is the Trickster so likewise I apologise if at any point I might have set things off. I conciously have tried to reign it in.


I think its important what you said that different internet forums do have different vibes/feelings. The one you described is one I would like to subscribe too and help maintain.
☮☮☮

@Fiddlesticks.. thanks for your message.. actually you and @Lank72 have written on a thread about ptsd which I’ve found incredibly helpful so you probably helped me sort myself out enough to re germinate, I’m grateful for that thread

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Welcome back matey, hope you are okay.

I'm guilty of talking mumbo jumbo in various different threads, I know @GrownHealth is run off his feet with all his duties on the site as a whole and can't keep tabs on everything that gets said in every thread despite his tireless efforts, maybe soon he will get some assistance in helping make sure comments are pertinent to the thread, the numbers on this forum now have increased massively even from my registration last September

I do agree and again I hold my hands up that I comment things that aren't pertinent, I do apologise and I'll be more mindful in future as not to cause any overload, end of the day this is a space for all and I wouldn't want you to feel excluded

thanks @TheGreenAvenger. I have also posted more than my own fair share of crap..on the wrong threads etc.

As well as running this resource, I can confirm from experience that the MedBud team also efficiently deal with emails from wound up members.. in a professional, calm & non judgmental way.

 

[GrownHealth]

Thank you for returning @MCovergrow it is really great to see you back amongst us as you had become a significant part of the community here and respected by members and staff so it was was really sad to see your frustration with the way things were going .

I also feel a personal apology from me is needed for not correcting a wrong that clearly should of been corrected so I do sincerely apologise and hope you can accept my apology

The kind of forum you describe is the forum we wish to maintain (members and staff alike)and myself I avoid other internet forums for the reasons you describe and I also at this point would like to thank you as this thread will help with members understanding the effects we can have on others if we are not thoughtful and considerate in our interactions

 

[S.O.H™]

@S.O.H™ thank you for your message and also thank you for helping me actually . A lack off awareness on my part also contributed. Hope we can forward as medbuds / med buddies. bro

drop acid not bombs

 

[MC Overgrow]

Thank you for returning @MCovergrow it is really great to see you back amongst us as you had become a significant part of the community here and respected by members and staff so it was was really sad to see your frustration with the way things were going .

I also feel a personal apology from me is needed for not correcting a wrong that clearly should of been corrected so I do sincerely apologise and hope you can accept my apology

The kind of forum you describe is the forum we wish to maintain (members and staff alike)and myself I avoid other internet forums for the reasons you describe and I also at this point would like to thank you as this thread will help with members understanding the effects we can have on others if we are not thoughtful and considerate in our interactions

I realised how valuable this space is for me.. after 40 years of working I’ve been stuck at home since last September, found this place soon after and know I would have struggled without it. I probably would have forced myself back to work and crashed in spectacular fashion without the Tuesday check ins. @GrownHealth you are 1000% awesome, fact. Also, you are not a machine so hope you also get some downtime.

 

[Lank72]

It's a wonderful space for those of us who are busted broke and battered by this life, especially those of us who struggle to engage / remain / be accepted in traditional community spaces in society.

Not sure you would get a response like this anywhere else to this kind of post.

No hate for the person who raises an awkward point in the hopes of a bit of accomodation, and no hate for anyone who may have contributed to needing to raise that point. It's a bit of a marvel these days to be honest and I'm so grateful for it.

I'm busted myself at the moment, the trauma symptoms have overwhelmed me for the time being so I'm really glad to read this today, and so grateful that sharing some of my own PTSD struggles has made a bit of a difference, welcome back

 

[S.O.H™]

we're a team

 

[MC Overgrow]

It's a wonderful space for those of us who are busted broke and battered by this life, especially those of us who struggle to engage / remain / be accepted in traditional community spaces in society.

Not sure you would get a response like this anywhere else to this kind of post.

No hate for the person who raises an awkward point in the hopes of a bit of accomodation, and no hate for anyone who may have contributed to needing to raise that point. It's a bit of a marvel these days to be honest and I'm so grateful for it.

I'm busted myself at the moment, the trauma symptoms have overwhelmed me for the time being so I'm really glad to read this today, and so grateful that sharing some of my own PTSD struggles has made a bit of a difference, welcome back

@Lank72 Thank you — this means a lot . I'm so glad this space could offer you some shelter when you needed it, and your willingness to share your PTSD struggles has made a real difference to me. You're right: there's something very rare about a place where people can show up busted and battered and still be met with care. That's a miracle in this modern world and you help make it that way. I'm sorry the trauma symptoms have been so overwhelming lately.

 

[williemed]

Welcome back @MCovergrow

 

[S.O.H™]

Welcome back @MCovergrow

Interflora lol

 

[Muiredach]

MedBud felt like a safe, calm exception, but recently, it feels like being inside a washing machine on fast spin. I struggle to follow what's even being discussed. Even the mute button struggles to keep up when certain posters appear on every single thread, and I'm left realising that no amount of muting can fully quiet the noise.

@MCovergrow, we are working on this very issue right now, please bare with us. I sincerely apologise personally for not being able to action things fast-enough as an organisation – moreover I apologise for not being able to get back to your email in a timely fashion. We will be bolstering our moderating team very shortly, and it's the first item on our agenda to discuss.

I will restore your original account and merge posts, with your permission. As I said initially in my email reply - we just disable forum accounts, and don't delete them, because we don't want to leave gaps in discussion, and leave missing context. Just database accounts/data are deleted permanently upon request.

I'm personally relieved to see you back, and again, I sincerely apologise.

@Lank72 Thank you — this means a lot . I'm so glad this space could offer you some shelter when you needed it, and your willingness to share your PTSD struggles has made a real difference to me. You're right: there's something very rare about a place where people can show up busted and battered and still be met with care. That's a miracle in this modern world and you help make it that way. I'm sorry the trauma symptoms have been so overwhelming lately.

It's a wonderful space for those of us who are busted broke and battered by this life, especially those of us who struggle to engage / remain / be accepted in traditional community spaces in society.

Gents and ladies, I don't say this lightly – but I am struggling to keep up so much with my daily commitments that it's hard to keep my own head out of the 'dump' at times. I'm over four years now into well under minimum wage for running what's obviously a vital and depended upon national resource. Beyond my own financial struggles, there's a lot of mental health struggles too. I typically work 10+ hour days at the desk, and even sacrifice almost all of my weekends.

I've actually been trying to find the personal strength for months now to reply properly to @joint_account's "Check-In Tuesdays" thread, because I'm not the type to open up about my own personal struggles - moreover, in a somewhat cruel/harsh industry, I can't overly expose myself to public scrutiny; as sad as that may be to say.

Either way, there's this undying valiant spirit behind MedBud which will refuse to back down. It's not something that just I embody, but the rest of the staff too. I think there's wisdom in the adage saying to "lead by example". Though also a strong point to be made in not burning one's self out.

As an organisation that feels like it stands for everything that's good, honest and proper in the UK medical cannabis industry – I couldn't be more proud of what we've achieved so far, despite all the personal sacrifice along the way. We still have a lot to learn along the way too, and this is an example of that.

My point is, we can't always keep up - but when we don't, we overthink the situation until the point we come up with a solution. We will get there in the end, as is the MedBud way.