Annoying when hear there selling stuff other clinics refused due to not being good enough so they get it cheap usually the smalls as they are too small if look up medical rules shouldn’t get stalks as long as do and definitely says shouldn’t ever get a seed or mould was shocked the cheesecake is gamma when so popular or all new cheaper ones are so good there not like hey I was told ganma stuff was like
Just need to try get my shit together sell stuff on eBay to help pay for my smoke
But other clients refuse it
yet ok for us and then it’s like a £1g if bought decent amount of top class tops not smalls or anything so where’s that going
yet they have said they follow bm pricing wtf
how can that be right when medical patient’s honest the weed masks so much but unfortunately as can’t tell them they don’t get that and that without it I can become totally immobile or almost crawling at times to get around
I’m going to run out so guess see, I got 2 sacks dog food other day but working myself to getting them out the car as 12kg each
Hate going out don’t know why seems harder than before but we always went everywhere together so guess why and just can’t handle seeing happy family and old people and then feel terrible for it hurting so bad the amount of times left town with the essentials only as feel like I’m loosing it and god knows what people think…
then but scared as I know been doing too much but my heads going from one thing need to sort to the next as need to distract myself or not in good way…so making myself sicker yet can’t help it
and so much needs doing but I tried posting for help local swap shops and builders yet nothing and to scared to ask landlord for anything as the whole village seems to be avoiding me or are as guess wanted the house not me to still be here
and feels a lot had my meds earlier so hopefully can get as much done as humanly possible by tomorrow but gloss so slow to dry and I don’t know what I’d do without my diazepam don’t think I’d even get 2 hours sleep every 24 without and if do have to go out have to prepare it ready as need weed as soon as get back as having panic attacks by then as seem to drive myself crazy in the car on my own going over everything I maybe should done different and everything I saw sorry guys should probably be in Tuesdays did just plan to ask about the weed
then work on rest asap so can get a house sitter if at all possible and have these ops yet terrified but going to have twighlight sedation if can as not general not now
As can’t have general currently too much but don’t remember it so be ok
but have to see everywhere saying different lengths of time each stay and getting there as drive but but not that far but lot of traveling while just having treatment
so also need to figure out trains that fit and sitter if possible can meet before and hopefully enough we saved as
NHS not moved they don’t care if haven’t been able to eat in 3 years
and so just more to cause anxiety but even if could order wouldn’t get it till Tuesday now yet better then as should try save some for after drs come as be anxious and my meds only last 2 hours sleep and can’t take sleeping tablets dogs need to be able to wake me if need me and make me feel crap
and maybe lucky enough to be able to grab some deals by tomorrow cut off if any time to look today and before they arrive but there coming 200 miles but guess just the first time then probably just one nurse if in ok with it
And iv not been even able to eat soft stuff since just get upset we’re not together so just drink hot chocolate then get constipated from the milk I guess yet thought I’d only wee if didn’t eat but not the case
be amazing if can get deals on
Indica or strong
Hybrids that would work
but probably miss them while trying to sort the house and bent over in half like my dad said I’m like the cleaner in father ted or he used to say
spend more time on the floor or off balance
or trying not to hurt myself as iv no carer anymore to didn’t realise how scary can get especially when seem accident prone
at mo currently covered in plasters and got a big bump on my head and that’s a good week
But he wasn’t just my carer I didn’t care about that was my best and only real friend my protector he brought me up
and only family iv no next kin realised when went to fill form and that was hard
just that he was my whole world the quiet is horrible and feels like the world stopped turning well it did I’m only here for the dogs as can’t leave them yet one won’t even talk to me and blames me see the hate on her face and runs away yet loved me before
especially as not his time they fucked up
and had so much to deal with when not in the right place mentally or physically to do these things and have everything in his name all the bills and there meant to make it easy yet last thing it’s been
Yet had to do everything to keep only home me and the dogs know and my dad rented 47 years
didn’t go a day not talking so the quiet is deafening I keep expecting him to come down stairs but he won’t he won’t ever cuddle me again or talk to me I look at where he sat and the dogs don’t even sit on that part the sofa
I just need him back and the whole situation plays over and over in my head think trying to drive me insane with the what ifs and had I done this or that or checked this or that and trying to think what was doing and what we spoke about but was just normal till it wasn’t sorry guys
Think just extra anxiety got to let consultant and nurses in then be the talk the village yet they ignore me
And trying to sort the house so I can hope get a sitter willing to stay they will be safe with they don’t want much just cuddles except the one the boys cuddle her she let me cut her nails thought and normally wouldn’t of and there starting to eat little better but there really struggling too… he was there alpha
Sorry again hate this but weekends seem to be worse time and don’t realise how much on tv that’s too hard to watch shows we enjoyed together before now I just have to watch dull stuff that takes no effort and hopefully won’t make things worse yet most programs do
, the bottom 2 pics are a spreadsheet/formulary of Medicanns stock, this is @TheGreenAvenger s handywork I think 
to help us out here like @Co4ie s 
cats out the bag now...
I'm wondering if there's anywhere i can read up on these strain, it was 1 thing getting used to the names on the street but all these numbers an letters mean jack to me (so did the names on the street lol). I'm a sucker for a very tasty number but have no idea what's tasty 
Any recommendations would be appreciated, Uplifting an tasty if you know any. And Good Job Sir on the spreadsheet 
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Fingers crossed the boss decides its the right approach to re unite the community in regards to recent activity....
