Going to be honest, I was protesting for legislation since 2001, wrote to the home office in 2010, had a letter from Cyril Marcel from the drug strategy unit. This isn’t just a small battle, just getting here has taken 13 years to the point I could go legal. So I’ve been trying to go legal for over a year and it’s been nothing but stress, agitation, rejection, threats from
GP, feeling of failure after failure, ffs I’m already giving up on life, it’s all a pointless waste of time.
Seriously, I’ve grown my own weed in the past (I wasn’t a dealer, everything was personal use only- not even friends knew), I know all about strain specific peak harvest, perfect trichome mixtures for
Sativa and
Indica. I had rotations of white widow, White Russian, purple haze, ak47, northern lights. For those wonderful years I had the ability to grow my own I’ve made my own oils, extracts, hashes, I make canna cakes and coffees, I’ve been using this beautiful healing plant for over 20 years, I know my doses like the back of my hand, I know what works and what doesn’t.
Got these clinics telling me I have to vape flower but it’s illegal if bake a cake or make a coffee…illegal or “wrong” to bake a cake… and they call me insane. It’s making my blood boil, or telling me they’ll sell me oil for double the price I can make myself, or edibles for quadruple the value…
20 years experienced cannabis cultivator, (auto flower seeds were a miricle and a game changer for hidden outdoor grows) over 10 years experience making extracts for myself, then spoken to and treated like I’m a 16 year old kid after a 20 bag of weed, by someone with less than 6 years “professional” experience.
I literally said to the
GP this morning I was done with it all. Even going to cancel my mental health appointment, there’s no professionals left, it’s all just empty heads and titles now.. very sad day for me, I really thought “yes!! We’ve got this sorted, I can relax now”.. how wrong.
Peace and love to all. I’m going back into hermit mode. Don’t have a prescription for flower but I’ve got a prescription for some diazepam, YEY for opiates

, which nobody cares about… don’t care if they make me an opiate addict, just another tablet to the brainless professionals,
Keep myself to myself and carry on

Over and out x